Two places I love with a passion with the knowledge that one day I will be torn between the two and having to decide on one forever.
I have a profound and acute sense of loss today, of time passed and childhood on the brink of ending, of the feelings of such deep love that it makes your heart ache and your head explode and tears flow so freely.
Of friendships and friends that are no longer alive. Good friends whom I miss so much. and should never have died so young. Theres so many things I want to share with them now and thank them for, because I'd have been in a very different place if it wasn't for them.
I'm not sad, I just ache.
Sometimes its good to cry.