Spring is coming, the lemon tree is covered in buds and quite often bugs.
Its peaceful and warm and I am starting to be happy here and maybe more settled.
There suddenly feels like there is possibility, but theres still a nagging doubt in the back of my mind.
I dont want to stay here but the longer I stay.....
I dont know where I fit.
remember all that talk a few months ago about the study that ranked the 'happiness index' of all the countries in the world?
ReplyDeletedenmark came out on top, for lots of really good reasons (reasons that make me despair even more for this country of ours, but i'll save that rant for another day). anyway, one of the news programs went to copenhagen and interviewed danes on the street to see what they thought of all of this crazy 'happiness' talk and one woman was very direct in her answer. she explained that her country men and women are happiest because they don't expect things to work out; they are always prepared for the worst and pleasantly surprised by the good.
there's something of that sensibility here -- an awareness of both the loss that is around (and within) us and also its abundant opposite. the trick is in figuring out a balance between the two; living with that potential for sour while giving yourself over to the sweet.